It Takes A Long Time

First of all, my main issue is letting people get physically close. In most cases, I hate it and get very uncomfortable whenever someone gets into my "personal bubble." And trust me, it's not them, it's me. I'm ridiculously self-conscious about myself, and I fear that people will judge me. However, I've gotten A LOT better with this problem as of recently. I'm slowly letting people sit closer to me, and actually being comfortable with it. There's really only a handful of people that can do this while I'm at ease: My friends A, N, Kaya, D, plus my parents are pretty much it.

The other issue is my problem with letting myself let loose when I'm with certain friends. Even when I'm with a friend that I've known for 6 years, if I'm at their house, I begin to act very polite and formal with them and their family. It's weird, but it's mostly just frustrating and annoying. My friend probably thinks that I'm not comfortable enough with her to just goof off and have fun, but that isn't the case. It's just that I've spent such a huge portion of my life trying to be polite and courteous to everyone, and trying my best to not slip into my "bitchy/annoying" persona, that it's just sometimes really hard to break the cycle.
TheSkunkLady TheSkunkLady
13-15, F
Sep 17, 2012