I've been thinking about this group since I joined it. It felt like any story I wrote would simply be repeating something I've already said, probably more than once.
I am trying to be much more selective about the people I get close to. I do have trust issues. I've erred on both sides of the equation. I let people in when in hindsight, I think I clearly should have known better. And I've pushed people away that I probably shouldn't have.
So I'm struggling to find that elusive and delicate balance. Maybe other people don't struggle with it so much, but I do. Part of my problem is as obvious as that heart I wear on my sleeve. But I do think I managed to erase that "sucker" tattoo that was stamped on my forehead.
It all comes down to trust. I've decided to trust myself to make the right choices. I know I may still get burned. But better to incur a little pain along the way then remain alone.