The disappointments and wounds from my childhood caused me to assume my own responsibilities and independence. I learned to depend on myself instead of others that hurt me or exploited me. Even as an adult, it's hard to cope with my own family not loving me or accepting me for who I am. They only take from me and send me into emotional chaos with every interaction. It's seeping over into my every day life. My emotional walls are high and stronger than ever. They are barricading me from others. My relationships with friends and my husband are suffering because of my fears and inner turmoil. I am afraid that I won't be able to let anyone in again.