Fantasize About Them, But Don't Say A Word.

I don't know why I do this, I guess I've been told that I'm ugly from the boys while growing up.  Now, I think I'm attractive enough, but still not good enough to be on their arm.  I'm not gorgeous.  I don't have any money, and my family is enough to make even ME run away from.  I like a guy and I'll think about him, send him poems of sweet nothings, and stare as much as I can, but TALK to him??  NO WAY!!  I'm so sure he'll laugh at me or think I must be crazy to think that he even thought about me.  It has to be the guy that makes a move.  He has to be persistent and he has to mean it!  I will give him glances, but I can't talk to him just yet.  I gotta make sure its me he's talking about and is he really digging on me. 

lilyiam07 lilyiam07
31-35, F
1 Response Mar 2, 2010

I don't give out clues, if I like a guy I like him, but I'm afraid to approach him and see what may happen. Its my fear of rejection and not being good enough. I feel that I deserve love and I believe its coming to me, I juust need to continue that God will bless me with the right mate who will love me as God loves the church. I hear what you are saying and it is good. Instead of clues I will just be open and speak to him. I gotta keep the faith.