I was always shy as long as i can remeber. My verbal abuse as a child crippled me into leading a very dull life. i wasn't excelling for myself i was trying to get that recognition from my father but it didn't matter if i got a hundred or 30 no reaction so as a result i always settle for whatever it was almost as if i took over that not caring role. anyways i have not been shown how to share my thoughts because if i did i was always wrong and didn't know what i was talking about and my dad always had to be right. So in short i have a hard time expressing myself and my feelings i was almost numb for alot of my life but i'm trying to define me and what i like and my interests not just everybody elses.