Alone and Confused

The other day, my boyfriend told me when he moves, he wants to go on break. I asked him 'do you want to right now?', he said no, and made me feel incredibly stupid by telling me what a 'break' is. Then he just sort of brushed it off and kissed me, like it was nothing. I wrote a blog on my myspace, which he hasn't read, and now I'm waiting for a message, like I do every night, for him to just decide I'm worthy enough to speak to, or to realize I'm confused about what he means when he says things, the above for example. I do this everynight. I lock out my parents (who don't know I'm seeing him), and wait for him to come online. He does, but he never messages me. I should break up with him, but it hurts to even think about it.....I wish he would just talk to me. Just a hello, how are you, or even an I hate you would suffice, as long as he's actually paying attention to me.
feelinglikenothing feelinglikenothing
18-21, F
1 Response Apr 25, 2007

Hi - I also read your confession - don't know where you are but if I can offer some little tidbits? Everything changes once you are out of high school. for the most part it gets a LOT better. Ask anyone. Do yourself a favor and take care of yourself till then. worry about what you are like, your personality, what you do to make the world a better place. build your character. Once you have established who you are, you'll find that you will attract men of the same caliber and character - men you will want to be with that won't mistreat you (and not boys in men's bodies). Its not easy at first, but once you do it, you'll find that the world is a much better place.