Never Give Up

One week ago, my soldier and I got some news. After he is stationed home for 6 months at his base, he won't be back to the states for another three years. He wouldn't talk to me for a week, but when he finally did, I could tell his heart was broken just as much as mine. He told me that he has to say goodbye to everything he's ever wanted, and he wouldn't ask me to pull apart my life for him. I go to school full time to be a teacher. He told me he wanted me to live my life and smile for him. As much as I know I can't leave with him, I can't respect his wishes either. How do you give up on someone you've always and will always wait for? As much as he's trying to protect me, and just wants me to be happy, how can I knowing he was the only one I'd wait for? I have three years of school left and I think maybe in three years, we will find our way back, but I'm so scared. For the first time, I wish I could look into the future, and not into a dream. I know it's in God's hands for him to decide what happens with our lives, but to every MILSO out there, my God never take it for granted. When you think you're the only thing he's coming home to, and one day you can't be anymore, you will wish those moments together were appreciated like life itself. People try to tell you to move on but it's so hard to let go of someone you worry about everyday. Not being able to tell him to be safe, crushes you. I hope when they say that if two people truly love each other, they will find their way back. I hope I could give hope to anyone else having this problem, and I hope to be in a classroom teaching someday and to see my soldier walk in. I wish, and pray for this over and over everyday. Never give up on want you truly want. Everything is nothing when it's not what you want. Don't think waiting for him is hard, because when he asks you to stop, you're going to want to wait even longer.
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2 Responses Dec 10, 2012

You're very strong to have to go through this. Stay prayerful and keep your Faith. My God, I don't know what to say.

Such a touching story :'(
I'm sure he'll come back no matter what, and I think you should keep believing.
I respect you for having a strong heart.