I Really Am Wasting My Life : (
I am a 21 year old girl who still lives at home, working a good paying job that I hate. Not going to school. Have a fiance who went to prison who i am now thinking he has borderline personality disorder and our relationship has almost totally fallen apart due to being apart and emotional abuse. I have secluded myself to my house. I have no friends beside the older women I work with and my family. The things I look forward to are going home and watching a movie or show. I see my old friends traveling the world and doing so much and having so much fun and I am here, doing nothing. I guess I am scared since i use to be into drugs and those were the only friends I had, now that i have stopped i have no friends and i am scared for falling back into that habit. I am scared of everything and always feel at a stand still with my life. I will have fun one day but the next i feel the same way, bored and sad... I hate this. Is there any hope? I know I am young i just feel so dull and bored with life and feel i cant find happiness.. Thanks for listening.