Change

Thank you very much. I know to some degree how you feel. I tend to isolate much lately and life often seem purposeless. Things are not the same that they used to be. Have you tried changing your life around. I think for many of us there is imposibility of doing it. When one gets to learn things about themselves it can be very disturbing. People say just change. Sometimes people can be a big burden

People can be a huge burden. I don't speak to any of my family, which is weird, but it evolved slowly and the important ones passed. I have friends that thrive in the real world, and yes, they think I'm childish sometimes, and I should grow up, but on many levels, I'm much more evolved. They acknowledge the old soul within me, and barely tolerate the youngster in me. Things are not the same, and I've tried to change, but its so uncomfortable that it doesn't seem right. I mean, I know that change is difficult and your old self holds on tight, but maybe my characteristics make me . Good, bad, right or wrong, everyone is different, right?
I'm disturbed by time wasted, and my inability to make things work more simply. Sometimes I wonder if I could just accept my short comings, and others could accept them too, maybe I wouldn't feel so "fish out of water-ish". :)

I think you are learning about yourself. I ahve learned much about myself this year and that i posess certain traits which society would call ill. I too have problems relating to people and it's even difficult to carry conversations with them. The truth is not pretty Maybe you are similar. If so you may not be able to change or do for a while only to resort to your old self again. I too do not speak to almost any of my family memebers. I am very introverted. Maybe you have certain traits from ASPD. We may be more alike than you think. When i change it doesn't take long to become myself again. I never used to understand why! One important question to you would be. Are you able to feel Love, empathy and attachment to others?

Yes, I feel deeply. I love to a fault sometimes and I do appreciate the fact that I can be empathetic, because I know many people that find it easier to judge than feel for another person's situation. I will look up ASPD, I'm curious. I'm becoming more introverted everyday. Thank you for talking to me this morning. I think that you have a very kind and caring heart & I appreciate your honesty and your time.

you will bounce back. You still young.

I giggle at your reply.. umm how old are you? Life's experiences of learning our mistakes make the mind wise, not old. That is if we learned from our mistakes, some of us refuse to learn. The days of prune juice, and senior discounts don't even come close to your age. :)