Bullied And Kicked Around But Oh So Much More Wiser..

...I haven't been physically bullied... Just an outcast...
It was in school year, I was about just under 10 I think when I decided that I don't want to try and be as every one else I am me, and I will continue to be me...just me...
When other said I was dumb or silly I just smiled and said "Well then I guess I am dumb or silly" just to take the edge of the fun of calling people bad things... They muttered "You are weird" and scurried off...and I just smiled and went on my business as usual...
The thing that cast me in to the path of who I became and the suffering I went through was actually Love... I was a shy romantic, love should mean something not just enjoyed, oh how silly off me I thought later in my years to come...
But looking in the rear view mirror of my life... I am somehow glad what I went through, somehow... 'Cuz if I hadn't walked down that path I did so long ago I wouldn't have become who I am today...
The only regrets I have from that time is the lack of social life I discovered when I was an adult and school has passed so long ago. I missed out the stupidness acting so smart, well I discovered later you have to experience stupidness; acting stupid is a path all should do and learn from... I didn't...
I locked my self inside captured in my thoughts and all the questions... But I learned so much from those dark times. I think I had gain less in life if I haven't question life...
Well that is who I am, sculptured by thoughts and a life standing in the humanity as a spectator... I wouldn't be the some without it...
//HTH83 contemplating =)
HTH83 HTH83
31-35, M
1 Response Jan 6, 2013

I remember being that weird kid :) All the mean things others said was water off a ducks back because life was too amazing to stop and think. My mom's teaching buddy called me cool cat because I wore this black leather jacket and was always smiling. Little did she know I lived in my own little world of awesome. Back then I did a great job of living in the moment.
"Cuz if I hadn't walked down that path I did so long ago I wouldn't have become who I am today" such true words HTH83, you are perfect the way you are and don't stop being you, you're so darn funny!

Thank you =) your words are like frying pan and butter =), it totally melts my heart.
I can see you as a "cool cat", and still are I guess =)
We are all perfect some just don't realize it, sadly and some do realize that, witch is just great I love those I feel pity for those who don't...
Life is too precious to dwell in darkness...
Thanks again Cool cat! Light of my day =)

I am a doofus, too goofy and nerdy to be cool !
and knowing that I light your day is a gift in itself!

Merci (french) Being Goofy, doofy and nerdy is the new cool, didn't you know? What fun is it to be boring? Nah it says to that you have confidence, because being goofy and fun, nerdy and doofus that takes more guts and personal strength than just being like everyone else...
"Only LIVE fish swim against the current" Cheers mate =)

awww you made my day!

Your welcome =)

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