Widowed Depressed And LonelyI had been married for 30 years when my husband died at the age of 51 through cancer, although I have been on my own for about 5 years because before ho got ill with cancer he was an alcoholic. I have 4 boys that are grown up with family's of there own and although they are there for me I don't like to burden them with my problems. All my friends are married and are not interested in going out. My husband left me with no money although I do work fulltime but only earn enough to pay bills and mortgage so have nothing left for any thing else. Although this sounds strange but when my husband died it was a relief and I enjoyed the peace and quiet, no more abuse from him drinking and tiptoeing around his illness because he had brain tumours as well as lung and bone cancer, his personality changed and everything I said he took the wrong way. It is now that I have found I am sick of this life. I go out for walks just to get out of the house,weekends are the worse and i hate coming home from work to an empty house. I am depressed and often cry wondering if this is what i have to look forward to for the rest of my life.. I am a young 52 year old and not ready for this sort of exiistance because at the moment that all I do.
Anita from Poole