Shrug If I Don'tI might be frank and straightforward. I always stand firm on my beliefs and principles. I am honest to say what I feel. I am a very transparent person especially if you read me through my stories. Sometimes such kind of behavior put me in troubles especially if I feel that a friend becomes somehow distant after an exchange of conversation. I give space and don't intrude until I feel that I have reach the boiling point to break the silence.
I accept people as they are. We might clash if we have different points of view but it doesn't mean that I don't respect our friendship or you as a person. If I have wronged you, either am conscious about it or not and can't magnify your actions I can't just simply let you go. If you had been a close friend, I would always try to reach out to know if I have hurt you which prompted you to do such action against me. Perhaps, I need an explanation. But if you don't wanna give it and you just prefer to drift away, it's fine with me. I cannot force you to be my friend even if I wanted to.
I had a misunderstanding with a dear friend a week ago though I really don't know what was the reason. I was baffled and confused but let some days ebb away to give us both space where we could be with ourselves to mull-over the situation. When I can't stand the iniquity of such silence, I ventured to ask and said sorry if I had done something wrong. From there we understood each other more and the friendship stays. I was glad and happy that I exerted an extra mile to reach out.
Now, a friend here on EP removed me from the list for the second time. I asked about it the first time I was removed, got a vague answer then re-added me again. Now it's the second time...whew!...I don't know why. I was asking myself, "what's wrong with this person?" I sent a PM as a way of saying thank you for the friendship and I was aware that I was removed for the second time. I don't need an explanation anymore. It's too much and I think it will only add a pich of salt to the gaping wound. I am willing to apologize if I have wronged but I can't think of anything. Hence, it's time to give up and move on. If that's the better way between us, so be it.
On the outside world, I either connect with my friends through phone or facebook and on EP I always interact with my friends through comments, whiteboard and PM's. If you are on my top list, I would wonder why did you remove me? But I guess, some people have such kind of preference. How vague it may seem, I do respect it. Shrug. I only thought that if we're close enough knowing some personal information between each other, we tend to hold the friendship in our hands. Maybe I was wrong. Maybe I was the only one being sentimental. I don't know if there's something wrong with me. The last time I checked, I am still normal...lol..
Well, I don't expect some friends to treasure me like the way I treasure them. if you did it once I won't ask why on the second time. I thinks it's simply being redundant and true friendship nurtures but never ignores. It grows steadier through time without hypocrisy.
4BlackForest 36-40, F 8 Responses 2 May 6, 2011