Losing More and More

Every day I lose a little more hope and I get a little closer to giving in and giving up.  This is the hardest part where I have to decide if it's worth hurting myself more to make this work between us or let go and watch everything fall apart around me.  How is it possible to feel completely numb and yet know everything is wrong at the same time?  I feel like a voodoo doll, I am just here for you to stick pins in when you need to feel better and get something out but otherwise I get shut away in a drawer. 

Give me something to believe in because I don't believe in you anymore.

complicationsofexistance complicationsofexistance
18-21, F
Mar 6, 2009