Why Do I Keep Trying When I Just Make Everything Worse?
on top of everything that i can't deal with, my wife hates me and we're so close to seperation/divorce i don't know what to do. I thought we hit rock bottom a few days ago (on saturday/sunday) and i stupidly enough thought once we hit rock bottom there's only up. right? wrong! I needed to set up an appt for my disability pension (I've a benign brain tumor since years that keeps growing back). I called her at work and today after supper I really caught hell for making my precense known at her place of work. So I won't be calling her at work for any reason whatsoever.
this is not because of a single phonecall that my wife is pissed off about . according to her i've messed up her life/wasted her time, we have 2 kids together and we live in a very confined space 620 square foot house. I can't get away and she from me. I'm wanting to save what we had as a marriage and every time i try to do somethign i just make it worse and then i have to wonder why do I bother when i just keep making problems worse maybe i should remove the root of the problems (me basically).