I Dont Even Know...

It feels like everytime I turn around life is kicking me down trying to make me commit suicide. Ive lost everyone I every loved, Ive been molested and beaten and dragged to hell and back. I was at the lowest of the lows trying to crawl my way back then was kicked back down again by some frat boy looking for a good time and a date rape drug. Now my fiancee, the last person in the world I put any hope and love into, the person who kept all my buried pain away has decided to be with another woman. I just feel like Im to damaged for anyone to love anymore...
knolen1 knolen1
18-21, F
1 Response Jan 14, 2013

i totally understand where you are...i ended up homeless, jobless and pregnant and alone when i was your age....and believe me you will come through this if you have the strength. in time you can look back on this time and know that things will never be this bad again....DO NOT LET A MAN DO THIS TO YOU....do not pin all your hopes and strength on a man you will be ultimately dissapointed and let down. your strength is within you , you just need to find it....life has a way of kicking you and continuing to do so for some time...however if you can get through it will indeed make you stronger. maybe you are far to trusting of the wrong type of people, maybe you do actually need some time and space to build yourself up again...then when your ready to face the world again do with your head held high with the knowledge that you are worth it, and you deserve better, and you will get better.....look life in the eyes and say "i will not be brought down"! ....i dont know if this is going to help you at all...but hang in there..it can only get better now :)