Who Would Actually Care

I have been thinking more and more about suicide lately. I think I'm too much of a coward to actually do it but I think about what would happen after. Would people be surprised? Would they be angry? Sad? Happy? I think I would be happy, to end all the silent suffering. I don't think my mom could handle it if I did, she's fragile as it is and I couldn't do that to her. I wouldn't want to disappoint my brother either. It would be so easy though. Take a bottle of pills, just fall asleep and all my pain is gone, all the people who have hurt me or screwed me over couldnt touch me anymore. Who would come to my funeral? Would my ex come? He would think it was his fault, it mostly would be. The family I hate would come to support my dad, I wouldn't want them there, I'm not sure I would want a lot of people to come, only the few I think actually care. Too bad they just don't understand. I welcome death, it will be so easy to let go.
Stars889 Stars889
22-25, F
1 Response Jan 18, 2013

Please dont let go....