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I Am Wondering What the Point In Living Is

Is It Just Me?

By: Disamarr
Written on January 31st, 2013
Is it just me, or does anyone else notice that when you are seriously considering suicide all the little things in life seem like so much more? It's as if small pleasures like listening to your favorite song or traveling to new places are suddenly appreciated more. Out of the blue, I just start to miss those things. Maybe it's because I don't hate life, I simply hate living it as myself. I think life is an intriguing journey, a mystical place, but it can feel like exactly the opposite.
By: Disamarr
Age: 16-17
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    Been there done that; 6 failed attempts, the last time was a VERY close call. Then again, I suppose if I really wanted to die, I would have made it happen. 23 years since and have healed my soul after so much searching for meaning. For me, I never found joy in the little things; I found no joy or purpose. I felt of no worth. I don't see that in your words - I hear hope. I didn't feel hope. I was more concerned about reducing the pain for my loved ones, and ending my own. I didn't want them to find or clean up the mess; we may fantasize death but in truth, its messy. I struggled to find meaning for many years and eventually I did. My purpose was to be a mother; my purpose was/IS to share my story. I have 2 beautiful babies that that took 14 years to conceive-I am 42yo mom with 6yo son and 3yo daughter-they are the loves of my life. A life I am so grateful for.

    My hopes for you my dear, is to look for meaning and find your purpose, nurture your passion. Love yourself. Find your way out of this darkness. Suicide is not an option. I thank God every day I open my eyes; I thank God I found my way. Find a support network, surround yourself with positive people and love yourself for who you are today and who you can grow to be.

    You are too young to feel such desperation; to consider taking your life - the greatest gift your mother could have given this world. Stay safe God bless

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