What Is The Point Of Not Living?When you need support it seems you are on your own. But here is the deal you say you hate yourself that you had enough but did you ever stop to realize that despite how you feel that you are truly unique? Did you realize that outside that life's twist and turns can make you want to give up because you have been neglected,abused,misunderstood ,hurt or just don't understand some things. It is overwhelming I know and its easy to end it to get away from the pain and that darkness seems to be never ending and we think it is easier to just give up and think of ending it.
The problem is you belong here or god would have never sent you here and share a few thoughts ideas laughs pain problems and realize we are not that different . We are all part of this jigsaw called life and we in our differences have our place. Why leave that jigsaw incomplete?
It does not matter what the fuq they say or do we belong here. We matter how bad things get ..lovers leave..relatives pass away it makes me wonder sometimes why we are all here. After laying in hospital helpless and believing it was my time to die I remembered the very few things that made me happy. In my mind I thought this is it.It is over. And I prayed to my god please take me when you are ready because I am ready.
I survived that night alone in that hospital and after surgery I came home and noticed
the beautiful things in life.Flowers my garden my home the sky. Each night I would go to sleep so frail and faced the possibility that I would be in heaven when my eyes opened. Well that was 7 years ago now. So I say to you that before that happened I lost myself in bs clutter and what others thought of me. It doesn't matter in this life..the anger..the fear what we did wrong ..what went wrong. In this crazy life we open our lives and should pause before we do something we can never change again...because life is truly beautiful if we look hard enough. Its just that sometimes we thing we are better off not being here anymore. But that is wrong. We are alive and breathing right now to enjoy our day as best we can or make changes to be in a better stronger way to not let anyone make us hate ourselves so much as to end it all.
If we all gave up then I would be talking to myself right now and probably not benefit from your perspective and experiences. I mean we are not the first to make major mistakes but that's being human it is ok to do it ..we just have to learn and make some tough choices because we are better than that but we needed someone..anyone to show us some real love so we understand life is not so bad.
So I wrote my thoughts and wrote and wrote and wrote because I for some strange reason give a dam. I have children...I am a father I am paternal
don't do it. Don't give up..you are worth more than that..that's all.