I think about suicide almost everyday
mandyxxx83 mandyxxx83
31-35, F
6 Responses Aug 16, 2014

I felt like that many times, and I came very close to it when I was in my teens. It took only one person to save me, a stranger really, and I'm grateful for his involvement.
The details are in my book, so I don't want to bore you with this as you have your own to deal with.
At this time, perhaps your children would be the only ones who can save you, as they are your closest allies.
I know that you want the best for them, and I certainly don't blame you for that. No parent want their children to come home and be upset because they feel that they are deprived of certain things.
If it's any help, I remember my mom (though rarely), rallied us kids around and did something special for us. These "somethings" was not always baking cookies or cakes, she got involved with what we were doing. It doesn't sound like much, but I still remember and appreciate those moments.
In a twisted kind of way, my mom sent me away to my aunt's farm where I was nurtured to become a girlie. It was her way of showing me that she cared and was protecting me from my father's strict upbringing.
Whether I agreed or not, (which I did), she went out of her way to say "whatever makes you happy".

There are many who care, it doesn't seem like much at this time, but they still care. It's a bit cliche but it works: "Hang in there baby, better times are coming."

Thank you..that makes me feel better :)

This is such a sad thing. Life should be so happy foy you.

I do too! But I'm not really depressed. It would be very strange to meet someone who felt that way ... particularly if you just happened to both be driving together.

Why are you thinking about suicide? I know that life seems like it is not worth living at times, sometimes more that others but there will be good times also. I know I am one to talk since I get overwhelmed with my own sorrows. I think having a good friend to open up to a little bit might help.

Please don't give up. I'm here to talk.

There is a destiny for u to do great things