Each N Everyday

I'm wondering what the point n living is.

I awake only to remain in bed - most days

Why bother ?

Because I'm a coward


The patheticness and uselessness of myself sickens me.



FckMyLife FckMyLife
18-21, F
10 Responses Mar 1, 2010

Hey :) feel like there is something out there bigger than us? That's because there is! We ALL have a purpose in living :) And that purpose is given by God. Now I'm not talking religion or what-not :P I'm just saying that the reason you can't see the purpose is because you maybe haven't acknowledged God's existence yet! :) HE HAS A PLAN FOR YOU :) I mean that!

I don't think there is actually a meaning to live. You are alife and is up to you to make the best.

And if you don't want anymore...

I believe it is also up to you (and only to you) to make a decision to step out. Don't give up to soon though. Most people are much stronger then they think they are and who knows.... Maybe there is sun behind the clouds.

It's not us that should be asking questions about our lives, but it is we that are asked by life. Those who ask the question, wait for an answer never realizing that they are doing it backwards. Answer the question...what is it that life is asking of you?

Your better than this you can make it and live a life of bliss

I know that some times we end up making decisions in order to survive in this tough world, which make us feel like a coward. But trust me, we all have the courage in us to fight back . I am sure you will be able to maintain the balance between taking the right decisions and necessary decisions.

Yeah , I know how you feel . It will be ok . Just remind yourself it's just a faze your going through and if you get up in the morning and feel the same way then just remind yourself again.

I strongly believe in what Iwritten has said. Also i feel that jack has some meanin as well. Now its obvious that ill never be able to fully feel your pain. But i can fully understand the reality of the situation. And im gonna be completely honest yano jack and iwritten are right. You have to put this in the past and move on because its obvious that this isnt you. You know what the problem is, and your the only person who can fix this problem. Because you have to ask yourself do want to be like this for the rest of your life? Do you want to be Emotionly unstable forever? <br />
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i really hope this helps. becuase I have a reallly close friend who has experienced the same thing you have so its a little easier for me to understand. if you need some1 to talk too im a good listener as well. so jus send a message my way and ill get back to you

Thanks also for you're comment Jack. I'm so sorry to learn of the loss of you're wife !<br />
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I'm here if you need to talk<br />
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I don't think I'm in any postion to be giving out advice though,<br />
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If anything I will probably make you feel worst as I'm emotionally un-stable !<br />
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But I will defenitaley be here for you and ANYone else who needs / wants someone to listen to them<br />
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Thanks xox

lwritten Thanks so much for you're comment. Sadly I have only myself to blame for the rape as I was drunk and put myself in this position.<br />
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I hate that I let myself get drunk and trust a guy I'd just met moments before at a Club I shouldn't have even been at ( Under - Age ) <br />
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I hate that I beileve'd him when he said he would take me to the toilets at the beach to make sure nothing bad happend to me.<br />
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I hate that when he purposley tripped me over to get me on the ground and tried to hit me across the head with a rock to knock me un-concious I just layed there crying and didn't scream for help.<br />
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I hate that i stopped asking him to stop and just cried like the weak person I am. <br />
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I gave up, and since then I have given up most things in my life ect Sports , Jobs , School sometimes I don't even shower.<br />
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I wasn't kidding when I said I'm revolting.<br />
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I just have no desire to go on.<br />
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I'm really tired and it's all my fault.

Are you serious? i am looking at you pic right now and i am practically bursting with jealousy. you are gorgeous, with or without make-up. me, i can pile it on and still end up looking like a fcking rat.<br />
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any way thats not the point. the point is that you hate you not because of anything you did or are, but because of what this guy did to you. he took your power from you and made you feel like you have dirt all over you that can never be washed off. <br />
the one who is revolting and ugly is him. you need to rise up and start loving and living again, otherwise that motherfcker wins while you die away with the cancer of all this self-hatred