I Wonder What I Am Going To Do...

I have been planning for months to move, but today I have thought other ideas. I was thinking about renting one of my rooms and then I would have money to stay. I was also thinking about renting out two rooms and my son and I could be in another. The problem is that I can't tell if someone is a good guy or a bad guy. I have difficulty seeing the truth in people  because I assume people are telling the truth.

I am happy to say that I am not depressed today. I feel better because I have been allowing myself to feel anger and to express anger verbally. I have held in my thoughts for so long, it feels good  saying what I feel without being scared of not being accepted. I am happy to say that I want to be alone. My friend thinks I'm bipolar, but I told him that is because you are not used to seeing me voice my real angry feelings.

I don't want to be in a relationship. I have never been single for more than three weeks in my entire life. Guys have always waited in the wings for me. That is a compliment to me, but this time around I want to be alone.

I keep saying this so that I follow through; it will be scary but important to be single.
lisaandshasta123 lisaandshasta123
2 Responses Jan 23, 2013

I am a single mom who just found out my ex has never been single for more than a few weeks his entire life. It has caused great pain as I never knew this until I discovered he was cheating our entire relationship. I have never heard of such a thing? He is otherwise financially stable and functional. How did staying single help you?"

His name is Michael Estanislado Lujan. Maybe someone out there knows him. I have no idea how many women he has been with. I am wondering if I could have gotten an STD. None have been detected yet.

Maybe you could get a gf or relative to rent a room from you ?

You and BadAss have similar concerns for my safety.I will take this into consideration. Thank you for caring and sending a loving response.