I Wonder What I Am Going To Do...

I have been planning for months to move, but today I have thought other ideas. I was thinking about renting one of my rooms and then I would have money to stay. I was also thinking about renting out two rooms and my son and I could be in another. The problem is that I can't tell if someone is a good guy or a bad guy. I have difficulty seeing the truth in people  because I assume people are telling the truth.

I am happy to say that I am not depressed today. I feel better because I have been allowing myself to feel anger and to express anger verbally. I have held in my thoughts for so long, it feels good  saying what I feel without being scared of not being accepted. I am happy to say that I want to be alone. My friend thinks I'm bipolar, but I told him that is because you are not used to seeing me voice my real angry feelings.

I don't want to be in a relationship. I have never been single for more than three weeks in my entire life. Guys have always waited in the wings for me. That is a compliment to me, but this time around I want to be alone.

I keep saying this so that I follow through; it will be scary but important to be single.