I Am Working On Being A Single Parent For My Sanity
After writing the last post, I realized that I have a lot of anger with the holiday and I am writing my feelings out to get to the real reasons as to why I hate that day.
I would have to say that it is because, I want to be in a loving relationship, but this isn't the case.
OPPOSITES DO NOT ATTRACT IN MY RELATIONSHIP.
I love all animals, especially dogs, and I have seven of them. He told me again last night, how much he "hates those dogs," and "will be calling animal control any day now."
He is an animal hater, and does not want to own a pet.
I am a spiritualist who likes Tarot cards, Oracle cards and energy healing.
He is an Atheist who believes that all the above is just a bunch of bull.
I am not his mom. She worked full time, came home and cleaned and cooked for her sons.
I work part time so I can STAY home with mom son, and I don't enjoy cooking or cleaning.
Though readers will never guess this, I am an optimist. I just blog out my angry thoughts so that I can deal with them. I am taking out the "ick" and working through it all so that I can be happier.
He is a pessimist, and will tell you so.
But the one thing we both agree on is the fact that we both had ideas of what the other person was going to do to change to be the ideal partner.
Both of us were fools for believing that the other person was going to change and become different people.
At least that is one thing we have in common: We were both delusional and stupid. I guess that would be two things in common.
So chances are high that we will continue our pattern for Valentine's Day He will continue to not listen and bring me candy and flowers. I will seethe, as usual, because I don't want the gifts; I want what he wants: the other person to have a lobotomy and to change into the person we desire.
I want a Stepford boyfriend.
He wants a Stepford girlfriend.
Oh,well, I hope there are a lot of carmel pieces in the box.
And I hope the flowers have a nice smell to them.
It is love/hate day to be honest. I love the gifts, but I hate what they stand for.
LOVE. Something that does not exist between us.
I would have to say that it is because, I want to be in a loving relationship, but this isn't the case.
OPPOSITES DO NOT ATTRACT IN MY RELATIONSHIP.
I love all animals, especially dogs, and I have seven of them. He told me again last night, how much he "hates those dogs," and "will be calling animal control any day now."
He is an animal hater, and does not want to own a pet.
I am a spiritualist who likes Tarot cards, Oracle cards and energy healing.
He is an Atheist who believes that all the above is just a bunch of bull.
I am not his mom. She worked full time, came home and cleaned and cooked for her sons.
I work part time so I can STAY home with mom son, and I don't enjoy cooking or cleaning.
Though readers will never guess this, I am an optimist. I just blog out my angry thoughts so that I can deal with them. I am taking out the "ick" and working through it all so that I can be happier.
He is a pessimist, and will tell you so.
But the one thing we both agree on is the fact that we both had ideas of what the other person was going to do to change to be the ideal partner.
Both of us were fools for believing that the other person was going to change and become different people.
At least that is one thing we have in common: We were both delusional and stupid. I guess that would be two things in common.
So chances are high that we will continue our pattern for Valentine's Day He will continue to not listen and bring me candy and flowers. I will seethe, as usual, because I don't want the gifts; I want what he wants: the other person to have a lobotomy and to change into the person we desire.
I want a Stepford boyfriend.
He wants a Stepford girlfriend.
Oh,well, I hope there are a lot of carmel pieces in the box.
And I hope the flowers have a nice smell to them.
It is love/hate day to be honest. I love the gifts, but I hate what they stand for.
LOVE. Something that does not exist between us.
By:
lisaandshasta123
Age:
41-45
