Tylenol Pm

3 years into my heroin addiction and a broken heart later, I swallowed sixty tylenol pms, and about 40 tussin 45's (prescription cold medicine). I wanted to die desperately but more importantly I wanted attention and so I told my sis that I would not be able to do her hair in the morning. With that she went downstairs and saw the empty bottles in the garbage can and told my parents.  Within 20 minutes there was police at my bedroom door.  I didn't resist because I was already feeling the effects.  I just planned on going to sleep.  The man in the ambulance chuckled.  "You are going to be sorry" he said.  Once inside the e.r., the woman asked me my name and with that I remember puking a purple liquid and then darkness.  It wasn't until several days later that I awoke, partially, from a coma. I was in the ICU, restrained to my bed with a resident sitting next to me at all times.  I was hallucinating and kept thinking I was smoking cigarettes and accidentally dropping them on the bed.  The best part about it was the tube that ran from my nose down through my throat and into my stomach, pumping me full of all sorts of great stuff.  It was so bothersome on my throat that I kept trying to rip it out and thus the restraints.  And then followed the yucky stinky greenish yellow diahrea liquid that just kept creeping out of my butt.  I couldn't stop it if I tried.  I was quite attractive if I might add.  And when I was finally aloowed to leave, I couldn't go home but instead to a pysch hospital where I was allowed to sign myself in. thus signing myself back out in 72 hours.  And the moral of this story "Attempting suicide was THE dumbest thing to do!" We only have a short amount of time here on this earth. If it isn't worth living for yourself, then live for someone else.  Live for a child in Africa who lost both of her parents to blood diamonds. Live for a child here in the USA in the year 2007 that thinks a mom who smokes crack and a dad that molests her is okay.  Live for anyone but yourself and maybe if you can make just a little bit of difference in someone elses life, then just maybe they'll make a difference in your life.  And if you are just indifferent to it all, don't waste your time because you're already dead.