Broken Child

When I was 3 years old my grandmas boyfriend would make me go on car rides with him and make me give him blow jobs that kept on till I was almost 5. And then at 7 I was raped by one of my moms friends. All my life I was around drugs and had to fend for myself and no one ever knew about the sexual abuse to top off a ****** life already. Now as an adult I became a ********, but I'm not an ordinary one, I've never tried drugs and I go to school. I'm just trying to make a better life for myself. It only hurts to think when I was 3 I never felt like a child and when I look at 3year olds now I think "your only a baby" but I never felt that way. I felt disgusting and useless. But having my life has made me strong and independent. I just still hurt sometimes and I don't get close to people I go to movies and shopping alone and it's hard for me to b social
Soliboli10 Soliboli10
18-21, F
Dec 4, 2012