Maybe 3rd Time Is a Charm.

I took around 13 effexor and drank a lot of beer. I made the mistake of calling people to tell them bye. They got worried and called 911. About a week later I tried again. I don't now how many pills I took or beers I drank this time. I just passed out for about 18 hours and that was it. I knew not to call anyone that time. I learned from the first time. Right now not sure if I will try again. If I do it will be a different way than effexor and beer.
DND DND
26-30, M
9 Responses Jul 3, 2007

Hi, i understand the pain you are in. If you have got no hope , then life is not worth living. I too am going to end my life tonight. Do not try pills , They do not work. Too much risk involved and most of the people who try pills always fail and get caught.Hanging lasts for 20 mins if not done perfectly, I do not want to try that as i might have a urge to remove the rope from my neck.Cutting myself,1% chance of death.Gun shot, Sure death but no means to get a gun.Suicide bag/exit bag too u might get the urge to remove.I do not want to use chemicals to kill myself as i do not want to wake up lame and with half of my senses and organs not working. I am going to lie down in front of a really fast train(i am going to wait for it in the night) such that my head is cleanly chopped off and there is little or no chance of me being woken up alive..If you are going to commit suicide do NOT fail at it.Plan it very carefully.Or immolate myself if the train trick doesn't work.Surely i can't survive both ?and most important thing is we are all animals, the fittest survive.And to those who are curious to why i am going to die let me be frank,I am not fit to survive and i do not want to live like a rat doing some ordinary job having a ordinary wife and having children and then end up dead. I am 19 years old, Should have died when i was 15 years old when i took weak pesticide, got sharp pain in my penis because of that, of course a guy can't take it if something happens to his penis so i told my parents about it.they rushed me to the hospital. I tried to suffocate myself to death, didn't breathe for 5 mins, felt sharp pain in my head didn't really work out ! damn! i really hope this train thing works.If it doesn't i am going to jump off a mountain immolating myself.

Your post really makes me sad. But I'm glad you're expressing how you feel because otherwise you will literally go crazy, believe me I've been there and I'm still there. I beg you not to commit suicide and if you don't want an ordinary life go out and do something ******* crazy! :) haha You have an important life and you don't have to be ordinary and marry someone you can do something totally different and crazy. I'm serious you could join the circus, take up some crazy *** hobby like skydiving or bungee jumping and if you don't have money for those things you could do other things. Just find what you love and hold on to it! I feel like committing suicide every night but I hold on to what I love. I happen to be crazy about animals and I love training them and it gives me self accomplishment. I know this probably sounds like a bunch of stupid bullshit and you don't have to read this but if you do please take it to heart because giving up your life is ordinary. If you really want to be different and unordinary don't commit suicide because anyone can die, living isn't something everyone can do. You are an amazing person and don't give up your life, live it up, do crazy ****, enjoy it because its so short and death is forever. Live your beautiful life man because I believe you are important and you can make a hell of a difference in this world. I'm here if you ever want to talk. Luv 4ever -B

I THINK ALL THE COMENTS OTHER PEOPLE HAVE SUGGESTED ARE VALID POINTS AND BESIDES THINK ABOUT IT I TRIED SUICIDE ONE TIME TOO BUT AT THE LAST MOMENT I THOUGHT I KNOW I DONT WANNA LIVE RIGHT NOW BUT I HAVE FOR EXAMPLE MY GRANDMOTHER IF I KILLED MYSELF SHE WOULD DO THE SAME AND I WOULD NEVER WANT THAT EVEN IF I WOULDNT BE THERE TO SEE IIT IT WOULD SOMEWHAT MAKE ME SELFISH. NOT SAAYING THAT YOU ARE SELFISH NEVER THAT BUT ANOTHER VALID POINT IS SUICIDDE IS CONSIDERED TO BE A SIN AND THATS ANOTHER THOUGHT THAT DETURED ME AT THE LAST MINUTE THINK ABOUT IT YOU DIE BUT THEN SAY ITS TRUE THAT SUICIDE US A SIN AND THERE IS A QUOTE UNQUOTE HELL, THEN IF U THINK YOUR SUFFERING NOW JUST IMAGINE BURNING IN ETERNAL FIRE FOREVER BECAUSE THERES NO WAY 2 SUICIDE URSELF OUT OF THAT. I'VE ALSO WITNESSED FAMILY FRIENDS DIE OVER DEPRESSION OF LOSSING A LOVED ONE THAT PASSED AWAY. WHEN ONE OF MY COUSINS SUICIDED HIMSELF MY AUNT DIED OF CHRONIC DEPRESSION FROM NOT EAATING TWO MONTHS LATER FOLLOWED BY HER HUSBAND AND HER MOTHER IN LAW AS WELL SO PLEASE THINK ABOUT IT IF NOT FOR URSELF THAN 4 THE ONES U SO DEARLY LOVE AROUND YOU . . .

I feel that if there are people in your life important enough to you to personally call and say goodbye to before you commit suicide, you are probably going to effect a lot of lives by killing yourself and thats something I don't think you want. Think about those people and reconsider your decision, I'm probably hundreds or thousands of miles away and I can't stop you and I've never met you, but honestly, even I care. Think of all the lives you would effect, not the least of which, your own and reconsider whether you would want to put those people though that grief. Chances are, more people would be effected that you think.

That makes sense, because a lot of people pushed to that corner feel unloved and unappreciated. So attempting suicide, whether or not the try is successful, as a way to "look for attention" seems logical. The key is to show these desperate and weary people that there are reasons to live, there are people who love them, and it's not worth it. We all get stuck in a rut sometimes and feel like there's no other way out. But as I heard somewhere once: "Do not solve a temporary problem with a permanent solution." And most problems in life, no matter how horrible they seem at the time, are in fact temporary. Suicide is permanent.

I think people who "attempt" suicide are just looking for attention. I know 2 people that really did kill them selves. It is very easy to die.

I hate that you feel this way. I hope that you realize that you need to get some help. For your sake and your familys sake. I know what youre going through. If you need a friend Im here for you. I too attempted suicide a few days ago. It didnt work....but life has a way of going on. I realize now that I am here for a reason. I hope you realize that too.

i am sorry and sad to read that.<br />
i also am glad that i have never had that feeling (at leat i dont recall it )<br />
i realize we experiance good and bads for reason and that we are suposted to learn from the experiance it helps build us .i belive we experiance good and bad to teach us right and rong to understand how to treat others and how to show others how we like to be treated. as well im sure we would all like to be rich and powerful but i think that can only happen is we dont consider currancy the messuring tool used to show wealth . for the people that get so angry or ashamed that dont feel they can carry on i would hope next time you experiance that feeling that you will be strong enough to trade your pain for the chance to purpusly help anather in need and to teach them as well that they have good and bad experiances for a reason as well. i always had a hard time to understand that i myself need to respect others and learn that life isnt just about me. i think we are all famous im more ways than we know. i ask you only this what kindness did you show today? remeber kindness is a band-aid we can put on where ever it hurts.

First of all, Angel and plug, posting on here isn't restricted to success stories. DND is still suffering from the pangs of suicide and I can personally vouch that it is not an overnight recovery. It is a process that goes on and constant thoughts of ending your life is part of that process. DND, I am glad that you are articulating your rage and hopelessness, and sharing your conditions. Speaking from personal experience, it is effective to transfer those painful thoughts into art, such as painting, music, poetry, movies, dance, anything that releases the inner demons. I have no prior knowledge of any of these mediums, for I just do it for art's sake. After, I did that for a while, I have discovered a great fulfillment in my life that I never had. It has filled the void that was in my chest. Experiment with art and life, until you find something that's fulfilling, rather than self-destructive, even if you are the only one in the world that finds it meaningful.

the point here is not to swap stories on how to harm yourself, but to allow each other to realize that you've all had similar thoughts or dealt with awful bouts of depression (which i can 100% relate to). i hope that you are all feeling better since you posted these comments and are beginning to realize (as James said) that life is too precious to waste....

let him share his experience the way he wants, when you're feeling bad it sucks having to hear people talking like this