Middle Child Syndrome
Since I was 7 years old, I suffered from moods swings, depression, fears, etc. Just about everything I guess. I am the middlle child of 5 children and some thoughts that I have had are not OK for a child to feel. I was always lonely, hurting, overachieving just so my Mother would notice me. What I received was, `I didn`t expect any less from YOU`!!! My heart would always fall when she talked to me like this. I just could never be good enough for her standards. I am now 50 and she has not spoken to me in 12 years!!!. I have been married for 18 years and she can`t even manage to come and have a coffee with me at my home. I am the only child that she does this to and I don`t know why.
She has used me as her scapegoat since I believe she suffers from being `The Victim`and needs the support from the other siblings. She tells them things that I did (which I didn`t) and soaks the pity from them. She even told me that she has and has been doing this for a long time.
Her greatest words to me were `Your Just like your Father`!!!!
I Love my Father and he has just passed away this March. Now, I feel so alone!!!
Being a middle child was so hard but she still continues on, I ask `WHY`??? Does this ever stop???
Has anyone else been the middle child and the scapegoat with one or the other parent???
I would love to share your experiences.