Sometimes I Feel Like I Can't Make It

I also battle anorexia and bulimia. I am on treatment, but sometimes I really feel like I will never make it. Like it is too hard, and mostly of all, I don't want to get fat..........I would die. I don't want to be a fat girl. I wanna be skinny and beautiful. Why is it so difficukt?Why don't I accept myself?

I feel more and more frustrated because I don't want to get fat, and I know that being sick will make me out on wieght. So I spend five days without eating a thing.

I don't know how you girls feel out there, but why am I so scared?

carmenjean carmenjean
18-21
Feb 24, 2009