Crazy *****

Yeah I think of myself as crazy.  When I have an "episode"  I want to be anyone, someone else.  But then again I love myself, and wouldn't trade lives with anyone for anything.  I can't make up my mind.  I forget how to feel.  I forget what life's supposed to feel like. 
blondie816 blondie816
26-30, F
1 Response Jul 31, 2007

It's hard to explain to others, but the illness wrests your personality right out of your hands, you lose control of your own being. After living with Bipolar Disorder for 37 years I no longer think of myself as "crazy" or even mentally ill. In fact, I would put my values and perspective on life in the ring toe-to-toe with anybody - if anything, Manic Depression has taught me what's important and what isn't. I'm different, I'm exceptional, but I'm not crazy. (Now Bush, on the other hand, HE IS crazy.) I think the key to the castle is accepting yourself as you are, and going from there.