No Other Choice But To Accept It For What It Is.

Its like sitting on top of a thin needle. the smallest things can knock you down. sometimes for reasons i yet do not know i enter in this state where i and only i rule. a state where im invimsible where im omniscient and omnipotent.i even got to the point where i thpought i could lift rocks with my mind and shoot lightning with my fingers.at firts i thought it was just my personality of being playfull, but it got out of hand with i started to over act, even my mother called me a "crazy retard".but then i started to notice that there was a another side to the coin, i started to see that there were absolute states where i just plunged into such depression.it would happen very ofthen and mostly right after feeling nervous or happy.during this state i went allthe way to wishing to die, to wishing everyone to die.there were times when i would argue with my parents and then this intense anger would bilt within me,this anger was so intence and insted of coming out it would bottle up inside and turn into extreme sadness.i would cry.and the very next day i would wakeup all reseted, i would look back at yesturday and say ''what a piece of garbage i am''. but then i started to just accep i was bipolar, or atleast it seems that way.as of lately so much pain is born in my mind, it sits there and turns to hate,later it wold just disapear.so much bulls**t  cycles thrue my mind, its all upthere,and sometimes i just don't know hot to put it in words.

I do not take medicines or theraphy. my parents don't know im this way.i have no friends because i can't make any with such madness loose in my head.nobody knows i have this little glitch.im only 17 . and i figure i'll just accept it for what it is because it simply has no cure, its there to stay.