Supposed To Be Working

I'm supposed to be working right now, but I can't really find my writing hook at the moment. What sucks about being bipolar and being a writer is that my mind is always bouncing around between ideas. I must have started thirty projects this year and I can't seem to get any of them to stick. I've been working nonstop for six days on a new book, and I've been able to keep a solid hook in it, but now I'm starting to lose my edge with this one. And I'm really happy with how it's going so far, but I'm starting to lose the inspiration. My life is kind of low as of late. Not necessarily in a sense that all of these bad things are happening, but in a sense that nothing inspiring is happening. Even a bad day can be inspiring enough to start writing. But I just can't seem to find my edge anymore. I haven't done anything exciting to get the hook in the first place, but I'm on a four day insomnia binge and I can write for hours on end, even if it may not all make sense. I'm not coming down from the binge. I'm still wide awake, (or at least mostly awake; I've had a tiresome day.) I can't seem to get myself to just lay down in bed and close my eyes and go to sleep. I slept for a little bit at around 5:30 this morning and missed my alarm. Awesome, right? The good part is that no one's worried because, as far as they know,I just overslept.
Maybe it's being at school that's killing my edge. We just got back from vacation today. Maybe it's because I've had to fall back into the rut that I can't get the creative juices flowing. But I need to get this finished before Christmas. That's my goal. But now I have rehearsals starting in two weeks, finals to study for, labs to prep for, projects to finish, songs to re-compose and teach, decorating, shopping, a show to see, ballet to teach, stem cell research, and of course, who could forget chores. So I'm pretty busy now. Although, I think stressed is the better word there.
I just remembered something.
I have math homework.
**** yeah.
ReesesPeaces ReesesPeaces
18-21, F
Nov 27, 2012