Right Now

right now i am just really trying to stay focused and not cut..........it's very hard to have a mental disorder and not be able to afford the doctor or the meds that i am supposed to be on...............then i find out that my husband's brothers dont like me because i  don't "work", meaning i don't have a job outside the home and bring money in to help............my youngest brother in laws girlfriend tells me that i am not instilling values to my children because i dont have a "job"............this is very distressing and it really bothers me that someone could feel that way about me and still be around me and treat me like a friend................how could i ever forget the things that they are saying??? and when my husband tells me that he doesnt think that she is saying it to put me down or to upset me?????????????????? WTF?????????? it doesn't matter what she meant to say...........the point is it hurt me and it bothers me and he can't even comfort me............he yells at me.............cuz thats not what she said, right???????ya well she wrote it to me on facebook cuz i wouldnt go to her house and talk to her, why the **** should i??????????? so i had him read what she wrote..................now he's downstairs completely not comforting me obviously........................

irishwiccan irishwiccan
41-45, F
Nov 8, 2009