My Battle

I am a 22 year old father of a 2 year old son. When he was first born I started getting these anxious feelings but didn't know anything about them. My doctor put me on anti-depressants but I despise medication and fought through it and loved life. Now 2 years later it came back stronger than anything to where I can't even leave the house without feeling anxious.I watch my son full time and it's very hard to keep in focus with him being a "terrible" 2. I have tried so many different medicines to suppress my panic attacks, which happen all day everyday for the past 6 months, but I've lost so much weight that the side effects make it worse. Now I wake up every morning with a knot in my throat and stomach and it is so hard to eat throughout the day. I've turned slightly agoraphobic but I don't want to be. I am currently on an anti-depressant that doesn't give me bad side effects and anti anxiety medication. I also started to see a therapist but like i said I panic all the time and I seemed to have developed an ocd of rubbing my eye when i panic until i feel calm because I constantly feel like I'm gonna get sick. Several events occurred that may have brought on all this stress but it's too much to write but it would help to get it out of my system.
snaregat snaregat
22-25, M
1 Response Aug 11, 2010

I've been through the same situation as you for 15 years. I overcame it after i met my mentor Joe.<br />
How can i help you? I definitely love to help you. :)