I Am Stuck Here
I feel sometimes like I am stuck in this depression . I get sad and don't want to get out of bed, I don't eat or sleep well and I sit and dwell on the awful things in my life. I think of all the evil things in the world and what has happened to friends. I am lonely but yet I don't reach out to others like I know I should. I have one friend I talk to but I hate to bother her , yet I find myself doing it any way. I feel like compared to her I have no reason to hurt or complain. I also know I want that significant love from a man . I am such a mess. I pray every day and night for God to send me a man who I can relate with and not feel like he is a liar and a manipulative jerk. yet I know he wants me to open my heart and get over it . How do you argue with God ? Only I would be that obsinant and prideful. I pray he forgive me for the way I am .