I Hate ThisI hate being so depressed and anxious all the time. I can't eat, I never have an appetite and I really need to gain weight. this is really embarrassing.... I'm always stuck in the house. I don't have a car or a job, and I have no way of getting one. So I sit at home all the time, most of my friends work so I never chill with anyone. The only person I see on a regular basis is my boyfriend, and he is usually working. it's really weird because when I have the chance to get out and do something I usually don't want to because my anxiety gets really bad.
I feel so embarrassed about it, I don't want to be a hermit or anything. And I feel really bad because when my boyfriend goes to hang out with friends it makes me mad most of the time because I want him here with me. i know i probably sound crazy and hey maybe i am. Like today, my bf went home and usually he works wednesday mornings so i figured thats why he left. then he told me that he doesn't work until afternoon tomorrow, and my feelings got kinda hurt that he left. I know he needs to spend time with his family too but I guess I'm so lonely and he's the only person I ever see anymore really.
I used to not be like this, when I was younger I was so full of energy and I never had anxiety. I used to love going places and doing stuff, and meeting new people. I just want to be normal again, I'm so tired of being a prisoner to my anxiety and depression.
sillyginger 22-25, F 11 Responses 0 Mar 29, 2011