I Am So Pathetically Depressed.

Dear everyone,

I am so depressed that I wish sometimes I were dead.  Life has no meaning.  I go through the motions of living day after day.  Where am I right now at 42, no kids, no friends, no hobbies.  Just a dysfunctional marriage to a man who takes but not giving back.  I hate myself for not trying to feel better, for letting these feeling weight me down, for not having the courage to do something. 

If I was to die to day, it would be okay with me.

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2 Responses Mar 27, 2008

God bless you. I know how you feel.

If I were you I would not analyse your relationship as he obviously is a selfish bore.

Why don't you try some voluntary work? It worked for me. My colleagues are great and it feels good to be part of a team. The manager knows I have depression, acute anxiety disorder and PTSD. He is always nice to me.

I don't have children and wish that I had but hey ho that is life.

You are not alone! I know it may feel like you are alone and have nothing to live for,but we are here to help,and there is always something to live for even if you can't see it sometimes.And you did have the courage to reach out here on EP and that counts for something. I know what it is like to feel the way you are feeling. I will do whatever I can to help you through this. Have you considered going to counseling? I am here for you if you want to talk to me.