Courage Is The One Thing I Want And The Thing I Lack The Most
I've spent my personal and professional life avoiding responsibility, connection and intimacy. I shun the spotlight and crave it at the same time. On the few occasions when I've allowed it to shine on me I quickly do something to move it away, because the unusual feeling is too uncomfortable. I actually look pretty good on paper, the vital statistics are there, but I still can't believe I'm an adult and have trouble connecting with the world in an appropriate way. I'll keep asking for help to face the world in an appropriate way, and maybe one day I'll get the help I need.