Anxiety And Depression

I have suffered from anxiety and depression since I was about 7 years old. I am now 22 and it has so greatly taken over my life in every single way I just dont know where to turn anymore. My anxiety becomes so over powering that I cant eat and I constantly feel nauseous. I am so physically and mentally exhausted yet my mind absolutely refuses to let my body rest. I generally sleep 3 hours a night and thats with sleeping pills. I feel very alone because everyone thinks I can control this and its me being dramatic.

My depression and anxiety holds me back from living an everyday normal life. I cant have any type of normal relationship with anyone because its so hard for someone to understand what I go through. I feel my life is wasting away and at 22 I have yet to enjoy life at all. While most people my age are having a good time with friends I stay home and cry because I cant leave my house without having having anxiety over everything. I was on medications for about 3 years which didnt help any just made me numb. Im scared everyday that ill be alone because im not "normal". I live alone which makes my depression worse. Im tired of crying every night and feeling so alone. I dont know what to do anymore because everything is getting worse. I cant remember the last time anything made me happy and thats really scary.
Lalahs Lalahs
2 Responses May 14, 2012

I am so sorry you are going through this at such a young age. I am feeling everything you are too. I can't enjoy life like I used to and I have a husband and kids. I don't work so I am home alone all day until I pick up my daughter at school. Like you I am on sleep meds and cry a lot and feel alone. I am on medication and am going to see a therapist today for the first time in a while. I hope it helps. I think you should try it too. I am also starting a journal. I've been praying a lot too. I feel for you and wish you all the best. Hang in there and feel free to contact me to chat.

Please try to get some help. It does get better. It probably never leaves you entirely but any improvement is welcome, right? I also struggle with anxiety and depression, since I was a teenager, and I know how difficult and terrible it is. But now at 32 I can say that although it's a long road ahead to recovery, I'm better. I have some good days. Like today it's a good day for me. Maybe the meds they gave you weren't right for you, maybe you need to try something else. Try to find someone who specializes in anxiety and mood disorders. Just don't give up! And most important of all, remember that you are not alone in this. All of us in this forum go through the same thing and we understand your pain! Take care!