Last year I witnessed my father slip into alcohol and some many horrific things had happen to me during that time. I was blamed everyday for it by my mother and I witnessed my father almost killing himself by overdosing on meds and alcohol other things happened to especially one of my e. guy friends tried to rape me because my ex best friend told him too. I cut and I stopped for awhile now I feel like cutting again I have no one to talk to about this and feel like I'm hopeless and that I don't know what to do anymore. I'm scared of myself and I feel that the ice amount of stress in my life is literary killing me. I'm afraid I won't get over my past And my cutting before moving on.