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I Battle Depression and Anxiety

Just Need Help. Plain And Simple

By: Gigimarie18
Written on January 27th, 2013
Last year I witnessed my father slip into alcohol and some many horrific things had happen to me during that time. I was blamed everyday for it by my mother and I witnessed my father almost killing himself by overdosing on meds and alcohol other things happened to especially one of my e. guy friends tried to rape me because my ex best friend told him too. I cut and I stopped for awhile now I feel like cutting again I have no one to talk to about this and feel like I'm hopeless and that I don't know what to do anymore. I'm scared of myself and I feel that the ice amount of stress in my life is literary killing me. I'm afraid I won't get over my past And my cutting before moving on.
By: Gigimarie18
Age: 18-21 , Female
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  • crisscrossman
    crisscrossman

    I'm so sorry to hear how much you're suffering. What you've been through would test the endurance levels of anyone. Do you have a minister or teacher or someone you can talk to? What you must understand is your father's alcoholism and near suicide is not your fault - he has probably suffered severe depression for several years, and depression is a clinical condition (due to chemical imbalances in the brain; I know, I suffer from it). You can't cause it. Anymore than you can cause your ex-best-friend to send some guy to assault you (that needs to be reported). Please don't cut yourself. You can overcome this but you need to make the first step: find a mental-health professional (or community resource if you don't have insurance), share your experiences with a trusted adult, and get out of your parents' house.

    Jan 27
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  • cantthinkusernqme
    cantthinkusernqme

    Please find someone to talk to. Your father's drinking problem is NOT your fault. Forgive him and tell yourself that you can be loved by others who arent sick. You have done nothing to make you feel or unable to feel true feelings. What I mean is the fact that you can communicate online shows that you are smart and articulate. There are free alanon meetings you could go to. I dont know your afe but if you are in your teens check out alateen. Remember these words when you are angry and down on yourself-- An eye for an eye makes the whole world blind-M Ghandi. You are worth respect and I know there is a purpose for your existence. Bless you .

    Jan 27
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