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Are You Tired Too?

I'm tired of always fighting to put up a good front for others. Children,grandchildren and even grocery cashiers seem to want me to smile and feel great for them. I just want to rest and be left alone. Of course,I'm lonely for company also,is this crazy or what?

try try 56-60 5 Responses Oct 11, 2008

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That's not crazy, that's life and being human. I may speak very positively, but my mind is closed with unnamed fears and anxiety all day everyday. It's a battle that has gotten easier but still dominates most of my social interactions. People don't want to know how to be happy because this world pretends to care or overtly doesn't, making it hard to believe a anyone really cares/can help...GOD cares. Faith and the peace that comes with it are how I get better everyday. I've been an atheist; it took me becoming utterly hopeless and at my wits end as to how to cope to give MY religion a try. I adhere to what I believe my Lord would have me to only: I love all and fear none.

Its even worse when you have to deal with rude customers. I work as a sales rep ,and from what i know i must always put a smile on my face all the time. You know the saying"customer is always right"**** that,today i almost beat up my supervisor and that bloody customer. Why must i always give my other cheek when someone slaps me. Its about time i did what i wanna do,and f **k the whole universe. Time to stand up to the bullies. I've had enough,Im so fed up

I am tired too! We both must be crazy because that's how I feel. I put up a front, but in actuality I am feeling totally devastated, and want to be left alone. The lonliness of this feeling, however, is deadly to me. I feel so alone, and like I was destined to be this way. The weekend seems like an endless deep dark hole I have to be in. I am going through a really bad time right now. I like to just knock my self out so I don't think. I have no motivation to do anything. I can't think of anyone to call because if I do I have to pretend I'm ok and all happy.

P.S. got a pet?

I 'm done with putting up a good front for others.<br />
especially grocery store clerks that are rude. Hold the door for someone don't even get a thank you. people who are so rude-cut in lines park in handicap spots when they are not. I use to be a big people person. I musta had blinders on cause now i see how much they suck. <br />
I just went through vocational rehab for work adjustment and in there report at the end they said i had 98percent show up . lmao they dont even know math. it was 30 days and i missed 2 and a half days.<br />
I may be bipolar or major depresive but at least know math. i've been out of work since jan 2007. i am going to try and get disability - miss 2 days out of 30 in a prt time job -good luck holding that job. I just hope we don't loose our house and vehicle in the time it takes to get it.<br />
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I just awoke from a 3 day sleep. I miss company too but it has to be the right kinda company.<br />
It's not u thats crazy it's the rest of the people in the world.