Today I had a bad anxiety attack at work. I was shaking and sweating, my chest felt like someone was sitting on it and I was crying, I was clenching my fists so hard my knuckles were white and I couldn't move from the spot I was rooted too after it started when I was in a quiet spot. I left work early and came home. I curled up in a little ball on my bed. I wanted nothing more than to have someone crawl into bed with me a hold me. But I am a single working mom of 2 with very little support. I had no one I could call that would come. My anxiety attacks are something where I know I am dreaming out and I know I need to calm down, but no matter how hard I try I can't. I fell asleep for a bit under a heavy blanket I was using to mimic the feeling of someone there, but when I woke later I was still not better.
InspireMeZilly InspireMeZilly
26-30, F
2 Responses Aug 19, 2014

well it sounds as though this occasion took a bit out of you but you're clearly mostly on top of everything for now. I am sure you'll find somebody for you soon :)

:( Such a sad story. I am sorry. I too am a single father and raised my kids alone. I know it is tough and a struggle. I know this is little comfort but you are not alone and you can talk to me anytime. I know that anxiety feeling. I never had it before but that changed the day my girlfriend left. Now not a day goes by without that heavy weight on my chest feeling like there is someone sitting on me and making it so hard to breathe. I also have no one but my children. Mine are all grown up now so they no longer cuddle up next to me. But since you have 2 little ones, I would bet they would be great comfort. :) After all, they are the reason to keep going. You are a strong woman doing this alone but guess what? You are not alone anymore. I am her and so are a lot of others that will be here for you whenever you need. Cheer up and hug your children. HUG.