hi. Its been a long 4 yrs trying to battle the unrelenting emotional roller coaster on my own. I stopped taking all forms of narcotics and I'm really proud of my self but I'm 25 yrs old and I'm having problems keeping important relationships strong. I alienate the people i Care about when I out of control of my emotions and I can't seem to keep a job, what will I do If I can't control this problem will I end up a homeless crazy lady begging for Chang and smelling of waist. in 20 yrs will all the people that don't understand me abandon me. all of these thoughts create hate and paranoia in side me. or have I been that way the hole time and is that just part of my sick ness I want to get better so bad but....... that but is my prob.
when I'm depressed that (but) just keeps me from success and when I'm anxious I tend to not stop and think be for I act.