Shadows Dance Over the Land

Dude/dudette, u totally took the words right out of my head, i so feel ur pain

I feel that way too. Let's all hope it is temporary.

Kudos
One of the hardest parts for me is knowing that if I get through today, this week, this year there is really no reason to believe that this is going to go away. And it is so flipping pervasive.

man i have been looking for help for a long time fourty --- years
when. just like most many marriages . rage that is outof cotroal When I lose it i only think of one thing the enemy is in front of me and its time to kill. I am marine who was in Quang Tri and north. all the good spots up there. was blown up two times. I dont trust anybody I dont like to be around children that are crying and I cant take crouds. I live alone in the woods am hsppy with that no people. Curently on meds and counseling. but the bad days out number the good.the world isent ready for what is comeing back to the us these folks are messed up due to to many tours.I hope that the gov takes care fo them instead of pushing them aside .This **** sucks liveing with is bad enough but the people on the other end of it suffer too.Guys And Gals dont woite het help as soon as people tell you you are doing strange things cuz trust me you are

windridder

Oh me oh my. Recently moved to a new state (fled an abusive husband). I know I am strong, always have been, I'm a "survivor". Good for me. They say God never puts more on you than you can handle but sometimes I think, oh lord you have made a mistake this time....." Yet I'm still here, still hanging in. But it is so damn hard - is this all there is? I'm diabetic and recently realized (admitted) I am lactose intolerant - now that's a kick in the head! For years I've relied on cheese (no carbs) to control my diabetes and mood and only recently come to admit, yes, the fact I experience gas and cramps and Hellacious diarhhea shortly after ingesting dairy means, well, I can't eat the stuff.

So what's left? No sugar, no complex carbs (rice, bread, pasta, etc) and now no cheese?!!!

So unfair! But what in life isn't?

I have battled depression my whole life - twenty years ago when I (they) discovered SSRIs I got a new lease on life - instead of feeling I was belted into a horrid emotional roller coaster ride I couldn't get off of, I actually had a shot at real life! When I realized carbs actually screwed with my head, I was grateful to find a tool I could use - hell, a chance to DO (or not do) something that really made a difference in my ability to function seemed like a precious gift - who could complain about NOT eating something that made such a tremendous difference? But now I find my old standby - cheese - makes me physically miserable. Now wait a minute - I'm willing to forgo 2/3 of normal food to feel human - but now I can't do dairy?? ****!

Listen, windrider, for what it's worth, I envy you your life in the woods - my dream is to someday live in the woods with dogs and chickens, and breathe clean fresh air and have little or no neighbors. I used to live in rural Virginia with 3 dogs, a cat, and many chickens. My dogs eventually died of old age and I ended up back in Jersey.

Since moved to Colorado and there is not a day I don't miss having dogs and chickens. YES CHICKENS! When I tell people this they look at me like I'm crazy but oh how I miss their fuzzy little buts and their colorful conversations. If you pay attention, they have their own language and rituals - I love hearing and watching them.