I Battle Depression And Have Lost 52 Lbs Because Of It.

It has been hard enough dealing with job losses over the past 11 years of my marriage, and the resulting financial difficulties only make things worse.  The stress I was going through made my husband think that I wanted out of the marriage (even though he never bothered to talk to me about how I was really feeling).  When my husband decided to have an affair, it literally felt like he tore out my heart, stomped on it and then put it through a shredder.  I have been battling depression ever since, even though he is no longer having  his affair and has asked me to stay with him.  We have talked and cried a lot over the past 6 months, but though it may have helped him, it hasn't helped me.  I don't know if I still want to be in this marriage anymore.  I don't know if it is worth saving my marriage.  I eat almost nothing and don't want to do anything, but I force myself to take the kids out to play, and clean the house, and make meals, and do the other things that are necessary in a marriage and family.  I barely sleep and am constantly irritable and am having migranes on a daily basis.

I have lost 52 lbs, and granted, I need to lose about 50 more, but I don't know if I can continue living like this.  Any ideas?
askteri askteri
36-40, F
Jul 29, 2010