Like a Faded T-ShirtI have been on and off anti-depressants of the SSRI variety for the last four years of my life. I hate them. They make me emotionless. The only reason I went back on them a few times was because I felt that no emotion might be better than always being depressed and stressed out. Whenever I went off the meds, it was usually because whatever had sparked my "SSRI relapse" was no longer a factor (school year ended, got back with girlfriend, etc). And I'm happy and fine afterwards.
Well, this last time I went off my meds, I didn't get my emotions fully back. I am not happy, or sad. I feel like the intensity of my emotions have been faded like the colors on an old t-shirt. My sex drive is also almost completely diminished. I met smart and hot girl the other day. We made out. It was boring. I felt I was just going through the motions. I got a professional massage the other day. All I felt was hands rubbing my skin, it didn't feel good like a massage should. I'm worried my life might be forever faded like that old t-shirt.
Sleepwalker 19-21, M 1 Response 3 Oct 9, 2006