Old Friend, You've Come Back.

I think my depression is coming back. I'm not sure... I've started noticing it the last couple months. So when I think about it, it probably never really left. It's not nearly as bad as it was. Its' just I noticed experiences that are supposed to be fun weren't. and I know all these experiences are subjective. and I wasn't the "high-school-loving" type of person. But I didn't expect to feel nothing about my prom, and my graduation, and my grad-night and just all these events that were supposed to be good. I'm trying new things. I'm going to parties and meeting new people. But I still feel like I spectating it all. Lately I've been feeling lonely. I realized that my friends still never make plans with me. I make plans with them.. it's been like that for years. and it's just frustrating.

So hello again Depression,
hello again Experience Project.
moonlightmemories moonlightmemories
18-21
2 Responses Jul 9, 2010

Depression is a natural and healthy part of life - the problem comes when it lingers for a long time.<br />
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When you get depressed, that's your soul's way of telling you that something's wrong. You can medicate it, ignore it, take drugs to dull it, you can even try to f--- it away - but it'll stay with you until you fix the 'something wrong' that it was telling you about.

Reading your story reminded me of my youth. All I can say is try not to dwell to much on the actions (or lack of them) of others and be content that your friends accept your plans, so maybe they just lack confidence in making plans themselves. You are young and have so much ahead of you don't make the mistake of with drawing from friends, but at the same time look to expand your circle of friends. Good luck be strong and try to stop the downward spiral of depression.