Killing Me

I've been struggling with it for nearly six months now. Every day is painful, with no one for support. Ive lost most of the people who I thought were my friends, and my family considers people with depression merely ‘attention seekers’. I feel empty all the time. I don’t care about anything anymore. I don’t want to kill myself, but I don’t want to live either. I’ve helped others through depression, and feel like a complete hypocrite when I think about suicide. I feel detached from the world. I’m sick of feeling this way, but most days I feel too in pain to even try. It's killing me inside.
elbando elbando
18-21, F
2 Responses Aug 5, 2010

Everyone will tell you you're not alone. You are not alone. This is true.<br />
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For me, hearing that never helped. I always thought "I don't care if everyone in the world feels like this. That doesn't make me feel any better!"<br />
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You should seek treatment. This can be hard while living with your parents, if they don't want you to, or believe there is nothing wrong. Go to your councilor at school, and tell them you are depressed, and want treatment, but can't let your parents know. They should be able to tell you where you can get help. If that doesn't work, let me know and I will try to give you more advice. Good luck

Hey, <br />
I know how you feel. I also have depression problems. i feel very alone in the world. I can't give you any advice but i can tell you that you are not alone. try to keep your head held high.