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Depression

I.ve suffered from depression for many years now, in fact since my son died, I take medication on and off (am off it at the moment). I've seen lots of different counsellors, with varying degrees of sucess, but decided that, in the end, Im the only one who can help myself. I do have a good family who are very supportive but I dont like imposing on them, I mean lifes difficult enough and everyone has their own problems. Some days are better than others....and then of course you have the anniversary, birthdays, Mothers'Day, Christmas etc. Life goes on and I owe it to my other children/grandchildrento keep going.
bronagh2 bronagh2 56-60, F 32 Responses Sep 17, 2010

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Many thanks for your comments,I really appreciate them.....Bronagh.

You really have a lot of courage. Not many people can see things the way you do and decide to keep going on. I hope you feel better! I also hope you'll have an easier time.

So how are you doing these days?

I'm not too bad at the moment love but I do have my bad days...thank you for asking.

Hey , You have to come to terms with it and understand that so you got 50% of the problem resolve. Many people can not realise it. <br />
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How you doing ?

Easier said than done but I know where your coming from love...I'm fine at the moment, thank you.

I know - but you will get there sweety !

Youre a brave lady :)

Appreciate that but I wish I was...:)

you are because you've chosen to swim and not sink. Which you have to be brave to do x

im so sorry to hear that :(. But its good you can see that you do have positive things in your life. How many grandchildren?

I feel for you and understand some.. My daughter died at 33 and she always was in contact with me and Yes Birthdays and Fathers Day,. well they are just an other day now. I get down ,,Just lucky I feel her strengh , and keep going... just a little slower though..

I feel for you too, life does go on but its never the same and some days are harder than others. I'm glad though that you feel her strength, that must give you some comfort. Take care love.

I understand how you feel. I was diagnosed with depression and at one time given Lexapro and then later Pristiq. I have been like this on and off for over 18 years. Coping is hard to do. Without my family and my friends and my sheer will I wouldn't be where I am today. If you need someone to talk to I am here.

Thanks for that love....unless you've been there its hard for people to understand how depression impacts on your life...family and friends help enormously so we're both lucky in that respect. I will bear that in mind, take care, Bronagh.

Thank you letmetellu.....I appreciate that.

I can't even imagine what you are going through. Hope peace finds you.

Thank you for your comments mart54321 and for taking the time to write them.<br />
It isn't in the scheme if things to bury your child, thats so true.<br />
Take care love. Bronagh.

That really is terrible. I lost my dad at a young age and still have not got over it. You expect to outlive your parents but not your kids. Anyone with a soul would not feel burdened by you expressing your hurt and sorrow to them.<br />
I hope time does prove to be a great healer to you.

Thank you bl<x>inky....your a sweetheart, cheers Bronagh!

Thanks for your comments Eddie. I'm so sorry to hear about your fiance love, its so hard to cope when you lose someone you love very much, especially under the circumstances you've described.<br />
Drinking helps, I know, but its not the answer, especially alone.<br />
Its good that you love your job, dangerous as it is and you have a partner thats also a friend.<br />
I did consider suicide but couldn't put my family through even more trauma.<br />
You take care love.<br />
Bronagh.

Reading this makes me want to hold you in my arms, i lost my fiancé 5 years ago, we got caught up in shootout and pronounced dead.<br />
Im here and she isnt, ive put my Magnum in my throat and came close to pulling the trigger.<br />
Most nights after killing and chasing criminals i drink as much beer as i can buy some marlboros and enjoy the silence.<br />
Being LAPD helps, i love the job, my work partner and his family are my only friends, i like it that way.<br />
LAPD think im crazy, i am but im good at my job.<br />
I hope you dont do what i do, if i hadn't used all the shells in my magnum up last night i wouldn't be here.

Thanks for your suggestion love....have been on many holidays and, because my son died before experiencing flying on an aeroplane, I take him with me, in my heart.

Have you considered a holiday to some place you have never been..?

Thanks for your comments puck, I know what you mean regarding the medication but when its necessary we have no choice. There is nothing worse, your right. Take care, Bronagh.

I hate being medicated but I guess it's better than the alternative. I'm bipolar. I can empathize. with the loss of a loved one, but there's nothing worse than losing a child. Bless you..

Thank you for your comment....I take comfort from what you say.<br />
It took me a while to realize that I had what it takes within myself and you're so right, it is the road to freedom.

I see hope for you, its going to be alright. You made an important discovery, that its up to you and noone else, it is the road to freedom

Thank you for your comments. I too have seen various counsellors, some better than others, but I must admit none of them turned me on! LOL Excercise is good and as youv'e discovered there are many advantages. Im sorry re your family situation and your marriage but Im happy you've found an outlet.<br />
I wish only the best for you too. Love and best wishes, Bronagh.

You are very fortunate to have a supportive family. I do not. I have lived in a sexless marriage for 10 years now. At times I have certainly been very depressed and have had thoughts of just ending it all.<br />
I went to a councilor and she has helped me. I would like our relationship to go into a intimate one but I know that would not be proper although she turns me on. Her best advise was to exercise. So I joined a club and work out 5 days a week. I go when most of the women are there and get a position on a treadmill where I can watch the behinds lol. The exercise truly helps and cheers me up. <br />
I wish you the best and hope you find peace. Hugs to you.

Thanks for your comment briangee, you've walked in my shoes and know what that feels like, we're both lucky to have supportive families which helps a lot. Take care my friend.

Thanks for your comment love, Im sorry to hear about your mammy, I know how you feel....you take care also. xx

your so lucky to have your family round you. i lost my mammy three years back and i still havnt come to terms with it. cant think what it would be like to lose a child. take care now x

Im glad you've found something that helps you, for me it is and always will be my family. My daughter gave birth to a baby boy last Wednesday..I was present for his birth and was so happy but then it brought memories back of my own son...it impacts on everything but life has to go on. I appreciate your comments and empathy...best wishes.

Thanks for your comment love....really appreciate that.

You deserve better. I was going to be flip and say the first day I went to work until the last day I put up with working I was depressed but that's the same as what you have to put up with.

Thank you for your comment.....Im not particularly strong love but what are the alternatives?