I Battle Depression
everyone in this world must battle depression even once in his life but the worst thing is to have it your inter life which is my case .I always feel so sad i can't sleep at night so all i do is crying i tried to talk with someone but i couldn't because all the people think that i have this perfect life full of happiness but noone knows what's goin'on behind closed doors not even my bestfriend whom i tell everything and i get this dark ideas about how i'll kill myself i try to fight but i can't make them go away 'coz they're stuck in my head and sometimes when i'm alone i get afraid 'cos these idea seem to control me once i even took a knife and i tried to cut my wrist but my parents came home and now t always wonder what could of happened if they didn't come .My started to seem so empty so i started to ditch classes my grades are horrible i coudn't even show them to my parents i started to all sort of bad things so i lost myself and i just can't find it i mean when somethin' good happens even the smallest thing like if someone tells me a good thing or smiles to me ,i 'll try to hold on to it because it may be the one that will keep me of killing myself so i go home and i sit in my room not doin' anything because i feel that the world will take this thing from me and the sad part is that the world actually takes this one moment from by making something really bad happens to me so i say to myself what's the point of living if i just keep worthless and that nobody cares about me I'm just a fifteen year old girl but inside me and after all the things that happened to me during my life i feel really old and that i met all kind of people and specially the bad kind.