At the age of 21 I was diagnosed with a chemical imbalance. I learned that there are several family members on my mother's side that have depression. During the last 20 years I have been on and off my meds. I had a hard time accepting my disorder and having to take medicine every day. Since, I haven't taken my meds on an ongoing basis, my depression has became worse. I was diagnosed with manic-depression 6 years ago after I attempted to take my life. But, I got on track for awhile by seeing a psychiatrist and taking more meds. Then, got off track because I thought I could function without the pills. But, I am back on them and staying on them. But, I still don't think I am where I should be.