Been There.

I guess life is what you make it some days are harder then most then you get days when you think these no point but hen i think thes people alot worse off then me yeah i aint got alot and i have had alot that should of made me give up but then i think we are all her for a reason i cant find mine yet but these still time even thou i have alot of haters and people i dont knjow who feel they have the right to tell me how to live my life even thou i dont know them i get called alsorts of names but then i think to myself you most be one sad person to,go out of your way to put someone down you dont know and try and make them feel so bad that you crave that pain and get off on it, but i came to notice that if you let people make you feel like that then they beat you every time,and the more they do it the more you know how insecure they most be,i have had to deal with alot the past year a break down that pushed me into a state that even got people who i thought knew me to beleve i lost it,but thats just the way it went down i have gopt over it and got myself back from that thanks to all the harassment and bullying which has made me stronger,i said to myself never will i let people make me feel they are better then me just because they have never had any problems in their so called perfect life,which some of them have deadicated to stalking and harassing me for the past year but you cant help how sad some people are thats just the way they are some people seem to think it makes them look hard to bully and intimidate people and to get off on making them feel so trapped that they feel the only way out is to end it.I came to a point in my life where i thought i could not do it any more but i have started to get along with family that i cut off due to problems with drugs and me being not able to relate to them down to the fact i have kept myself away for so long but now i have nephews who im proud of and a new lease on life i see things i never before i see all the good when i get hate aimed at me i just smile and think how unhappy they most be to take it out on a stranger,who has nothing to do with them and love the fact they have nothing but hate to keep them going and a need to look for trouble to get noticed,but when you start to love yourself and look for the things you never did before it makes you want to look for other things to do,i have a long way to go but im ready to put aside all what i have blocked out and now want to try and find ways to love and care but i have to start with me,cause im no good till i get myself together and as long as i stay postive and not let sad people bother me it will be just another day.